Hello everybody! First of all, woah! Its been a long time since i last updated my blog. Well, many things happened during my absence here. Want to know something? Bedrooms are like paradise. Have some sneak to view them here ok. Sarafina and the other girl friends are coming down to my house. There are going to jump on my comfy bed! Hahahahahahahaha! My mother will scream at them lah! Hehehe! Alright, i have house chores to do before i can really use the net. Hehehe. Otherwise, mother will definitely scream and yell at me. Arghhhh! Bye!

Hey lovelies! Im finally back. Ok, sorry for not updating these few days. Im too busy with my housework. Or maybe should i said, my bedroom?! Mom and dad bought a new paint for me. To paint my room, make it look better for new year. Im so happy!!! Look!! Im putting up the pictures soon! Meanwhile, take care lovelies! Update more soon! :)

I really want to get a job. I cant be stalking myself at home 24/7. Life is neutral now. I thanked god for his fair-ness towards me. And yes, Sherhan is trying to win my heart back. But i wont be so desperate to accept him back after whatever reason he have left me for. Now that i love my life, knowing that me and Sherhan are just good friends, or shall i say, close friends? Yes, life is good. I know that sometimes we couldnt always have whatever we want. But we all try. Orites, lets hop to another subject. I was at home the whole day. I swear i didnt go out. I just feel so tired, that i sleep and eat and eat and sleep again. And when i really cannot sleep, i get myself to my laptop, and i use the internet like 24hrs man! Hahaha. Anyws, daddy says that he wants to bring me to Korea this january. Its winter time. And he probably will get the tickets asap, because from what his partners and co. told him, december are already fully booked. And then, whats more for january????? I cant wait. And my brother was like so hubba hubba happy.. All of course are finding a job after the trip. I hope it works yah.... Orites, blog more.

Time check: 7.08 am.

Reached home around 5am. Yes, Sandy's barbeque pit was super awesome. I was forced to eat like a pig. Hahahahaha! But look, the food at her pit was great. Went to east coast park to celebrate her advanced 20th birthday. Tomorrow will be her birthday. May you success in your life, baby girl! Sorry i couldnt make it for the girls outing with you'all tomorrow. Reason is because, my grandmother and families in Hong Kong is coming over. Many sorry! But i promise you that i will buy you something nice and memorable. Lastly, HAPPY ADVANCED 20TH BIRTHDAY, LOVELY SANDY! Back to where i start. I was trying to shut my two blardy eyes, but i just couldnt. I layed down my bed, and still, i couldnt help myself from falling asleep. At 6.15am, Sherhan and Melvin called me, we had some chit chatting and hung up later. And again, i cannot sleep!! So here i'am blogging and checing my friendster. Friends, if i reply your comment too late, im sorry yeah! I just couldnt help myself replying all on the spot... Hehehehehehe! But i promise to write the longer the comments for all of u!! Winks.. bye!

Its 2.02am. Im still wide awake! Today have no plans yet. I have to call Janice to ask whether she is going to come over to my place and then we go for our daily night supper or what!? Later on, amirah and attica is coming over to my place. We will be ordering macdonald and play some board games... Its boring man! So we shall rock the party yaw! Oh, thank-you all for linking me too! Its a support from all of ya! So, people, do take care and till then, Sharah...

Im gonna blog-hopped, be thick skin and link people up. Doing it soon, or later i mean. Want to get some rest first. Oh wells, yeay! People, don't mind me tagging ya, and asking ya to link me up. Im bored and its my first time linking people-up. Hehs! Normally i will just bookmark them! So yeay. Support needed. Im friendly, so do talk aye? All are loved. Take care and more pictures to come-up. Bye babies!

Yeay! Let me share soemthing "weird" with you. Sherhan called me earlier on to say sorry. Guess he have been reading my previous entries and so. He also asked if why i deleted my old entries about me and him. He loves to read it and ya. Told him that i thought all is going to be over. And all those things will never return. I have been patient enough with him all this while yet, im still listening to him. Maybe the feelings now wouldn't be the same. But that is ok. I suggested to him that, we should continue to mend our own ways and just stay in contact, as a good friends only. I doesn't want to put high hopes on him. Im scared that i might hurt and of course, i feel like im being cheat. The insecure feelings will never fade away from me, for now. Families and friends says that, "forgive and forget". But hello. Its easier said than done. I will forgive him, but i will never forget whatever he have done towards me. Guys are sweet talks. Well yeay. I had a full 2hr convos. with him. At last he told me that, the girl was the one who kept pestering him. The girl even told him that, im not a good gf fo Sherhan. Its just like the girl is trying to poison Sherhan's mind to leave me. I have not see the girl's face yet and i don't wish to see. All i need now is to contact Sherhan like the old times. Forgive him and i will make sure, he won't repeat his naive act. I love him, yes i do. But i cannot force myself to love him when i know, things are difficult now. The trust is not there anymore. Yes, i move on very fast. So what is the problem now? Sherhan did everything that he could to forsake me. And now when he came begging and seeking for my forgiveness, you think i should trust whatever he told me earlier on? No. Im not an easy girl, and i will prove him. Sherhan, if you were to read this, i don't really blame you. As i know it takes 2 hands to clap. I admit my mistakes too. But hey, i love you man!

Deleted many posts back then. Looking back at my old entries, it reminds me of Sherhan. I know its difficult to move on and leave the past behind. 3 years with him seems wasted afterall. It trashed into small bits of pieces. I doesn't know why his attitude changed tremendously to be one weird human on earth. He has been giving me all the happiness and everything in life. I wouldn't want to ask for more. Before, i talked to him on msn. But he seems so busy and doesnt have much interest to entertain me or to talk to me. I know its a sad thing for everyone to know that we are over. The lovely couple and the happy couple on earth. All are gone forever now. I can't do much. All i did was to cry and cry. Its hurts me so much. And the thing that make me upset is, the girl keeps on messaging him eventhough she knows that Sherhan is in a relationship with me. And she also knows that we have been together for 3 years plus. But she is one numb skull, who doesnt care about other's feelings. She is a girl too, and i believe that she truly understand how hurt i feel knowing that she is there as a third-party to destroy my relastionship with Sherhan. I dont mind her using names against me. As i know that it take one to know another one. Afterall, she is a poisonous snake. I doesn't know who is her next victim. I just hope that those guys out there who have been years with his girlfriend, don't ever get trapped with another girl's attraction. They will attract your attention first and then they will do whatever they can get. This kind of girls or shall i say, people, won't go anywhere. They wont even excel in whatever they do. Look up world, we have been 3 years together and nothing seems wrong until the presence of this girl. She is 3 years older than Sherhan and me. And she just broke-up with her boyfriend few days ago before she keep in contact with Sherhan. They broke-up because, the same thing happened, she played her ex-boyfriend out. She went out with other guys, besides than Sherhan. I totally don't mind her going out with Sherhan (i even told Sherhan about that. And im honest with every of my words) , as i know Sherhan won't do anything not nice behind my back. But this time around, Sherhan treats me like total shit and he even talk to that girl about his arguments/quarrels with me (i then noticed that he have fall into that girl's bitchy and sweet talks trapped) . All this while, i have been treating Sherhan more like a prince. I make him happy, im honest towards him, im being good towards him, being an obedient sayang, and a helpful family-friend towards him and his family. I doesn't expect all tthis to happened. All the sweet and bitter memories we had together are all history now. I just pray that he will realised that the girl that he is contacting with wouldnt freak-him-out or play-him-out. And i hope that he realised that the girl is just making a fool out of him, and also if they were to be together, i promise to you all out there that they will not last any longer.