Yeay! Let me share soemthing "weird" with you. Sherhan called me earlier on to say sorry. Guess he have been reading my previous entries and so. He also asked if why i deleted my old entries about me and him. He loves to read it and ya. Told him that i thought all is going to be over. And all those things will never return. I have been patient enough with him all this while yet, im still listening to him. Maybe the feelings now wouldn't be the same. But that is ok. I suggested to him that, we should continue to mend our own ways and just stay in contact, as a good friends only. I doesn't want to put high hopes on him. Im scared that i might hurt and of course, i feel like im being cheat. The insecure feelings will never fade away from me, for now. Families and friends says that, "forgive and forget". But hello. Its easier said than done. I will forgive him, but i will never forget whatever he have done towards me. Guys are sweet talks. Well yeay. I had a full 2hr convos. with him. At last he told me that, the girl was the one who kept pestering him. The girl even told him that, im not a good gf fo Sherhan. Its just like the girl is trying to poison Sherhan's mind to leave me. I have not see the girl's face yet and i don't wish to see. All i need now is to contact Sherhan like the old times. Forgive him and i will make sure, he won't repeat his naive act. I love him, yes i do. But i cannot force myself to love him when i know, things are difficult now. The trust is not there anymore. Yes, i move on very fast. So what is the problem now? Sherhan did everything that he could to forsake me. And now when he came begging and seeking for my forgiveness, you think i should trust whatever he told me earlier on? No. Im not an easy girl, and i will prove him. Sherhan, if you were to read this, i don't really blame you. As i know it takes 2 hands to clap. I admit my mistakes too. But hey, i love you man!