Deleted many posts back then. Looking back at my old entries, it reminds me of Sherhan. I know its difficult to move on and leave the past behind. 3 years with him seems wasted afterall. It trashed into small bits of pieces. I doesn't know why his attitude changed tremendously to be one weird human on earth. He has been giving me all the happiness and everything in life. I wouldn't want to ask for more. Before, i talked to him on msn. But he seems so busy and doesnt have much interest to entertain me or to talk to me. I know its a sad thing for everyone to know that we are over. The lovely couple and the happy couple on earth. All are gone forever now. I can't do much. All i did was to cry and cry. Its hurts me so much. And the thing that make me upset is, the girl keeps on messaging him eventhough she knows that Sherhan is in a relationship with me. And she also knows that we have been together for 3 years plus. But she is one numb skull, who doesnt care about other's feelings. She is a girl too, and i believe that she truly understand how hurt i feel knowing that she is there as a third-party to destroy my relastionship with Sherhan. I dont mind her using names against me. As i know that it take one to know another one. Afterall, she is a poisonous snake. I doesn't know who is her next victim. I just hope that those guys out there who have been years with his girlfriend, don't ever get trapped with another girl's attraction. They will attract your attention first and then they will do whatever they can get. This kind of girls or shall i say, people, won't go anywhere. They wont even excel in whatever they do. Look up world, we have been 3 years together and nothing seems wrong until the presence of this girl. She is 3 years older than Sherhan and me. And she just broke-up with her boyfriend few days ago before she keep in contact with Sherhan. They broke-up because, the same thing happened, she played her ex-boyfriend out. She went out with other guys, besides than Sherhan. I totally don't mind her going out with Sherhan (i even told Sherhan about that. And im honest with every of my words) , as i know Sherhan won't do anything not nice behind my back. But this time around, Sherhan treats me like total shit and he even talk to that girl about his arguments/quarrels with me (i then noticed that he have fall into that girl's bitchy and sweet talks trapped) . All this while, i have been treating Sherhan more like a prince. I make him happy, im honest towards him, im being good towards him, being an obedient sayang, and a helpful family-friend towards him and his family. I doesn't expect all tthis to happened. All the sweet and bitter memories we had together are all history now. I just pray that he will realised that the girl that he is contacting with wouldnt freak-him-out or play-him-out. And i hope that he realised that the girl is just making a fool out of him, and also if they were to be together, i promise to you all out there that they will not last any longer.